feeling so empty

So, Today we went to eat dinner at Matthew's cousins house..Yep, She is 7 months pregnant. All she seems to talk about is her baby, I know she is excited..but dangit..come on. I am depressed enough as it is. I miss Christian so much. I feel like I am suffocating and no one can save me. What do I do?

Changes

I never thought in my whole life I would have an Angel in heaven...My life died a little when I lost Christian and I think if I didnt have Emma, I would just roll over and die. My heart aches when I see a pregnant person. Or when someone mentions having a baby. I know God has plans, but right now I can't see the big picture. I pray that God can give me some kind of hope and faith to know everything is ok!